Here I am alone?

Okay so the boys are off at the park and I really don't know what to do with myself . . . inwardly jumping for joy I have a second or two to myself. you know what I would really like to do is go listen to some live music and just listen. All you people with no kids, go listen to some live music for me and relish in your ability to just be with the music and yourself . . . I know someday I will get back to that and then I will wish I was with Luka, that he needed me, or some bullshit like that, but I sure hope not. I hope I get better at just being in the moment.
I wrote my first abundance check today, per request of my mama, she's been asking me to do that for quite a while and I still haven't. I really want to write . . . need to get back to it, I would love to write books and record music for a living successfully, and i think I shall be doing just that for the rest of my life . . . for now the new cd is my next baby. And the verdict is in on the next baby's name if she be a girl - Pieta. Today i daydreamed I would ask Greg Brown if I could propose to Andy at his concert -- what a great idea. I just wish Andy would propose to me, kind of. I still trust noone reads this. I'm not doing very good at just being alone . . .