Today I let go

Today I let go and let the day take me. Today I woke up miserable but sit here anyway, happily writing. Today I walked through the woods and smelled the wet fragrance of spring even though it was cloudy and yucky. Today Luka laughed harder than ever. Today I told my mother about my depression and she didn't miraculously learn how to respond and it was okay that she didn't know what to say. Today I had more compassion for all the other depressed souls out there. Today I thought even more than ever it is time for me to let go of material possessions being important or giving me comfort or security or self worth or fun and that I still truly believe I can do these things on my own. Today I thought of bicycling with Luka again. Today I slacked on chores but cooked a good, loved meal for dinner. Today I ate no sugar except for the honey in my coffee and the Luna Bar. Today I found 2 vintage leather purses at the thrift shop for $2. Today I talked with my friend Curtis and admired the goosebumps on his gorgeous baker's arms as the wind picked up off the Lake. Today I was inspired by him. Today I asked Andy if he still loves me and he said yes, and so did I. Today was life and life was today and I did fine.