Sunshine revelations

Today was beautiful and sunny though I was tired and sore and walked in a bit of a cloud but Jennifer's fire and our walking is helpin gme clear my head. I accept myself better now that I understand what has been happening with my life. Things seem nicer, easier, not so difficult. Luka is learning so much every day we have to stop swearing because he hears the weight in those words and repeats them as if throwing back to us some heavy ball like a game. I think I like this age more and more as he is getting so fun. Less disobedient and more interactive, truly talking with us and playing with us. Tonight we had Curtis over and I sank my eyes into his deep caramel skin, lingered over his long black hair. He is someone I truly admire, someone not unlike myself who continues to dive headfirst into his own issues and come out a better person. I must remember this. I spoke with Dave on the phone and he is enjoying practicing therapy, it seems to give him a sense of purpose, though now I often get the sense he is trying to help me . . . he will settle into it. Today was a gorgeous day. We walked and talked for hours and then played at jenn's and she reminded me that these are the days we will look back on and cherish, and today I know I cherished it because he took a long nap and I was able to do the dishes and cook dinner in peace and share that dinner with a treasured guest and just have a nice, normal, pleasant and free of drama day. Beautiful. And I have been journaling quite wel, and avoiding sugar well, and all those things . . . stream. Love thyself!!!!!